Up and Running

So, I'm already two months into my second year at university. It's been a pretty crazy two months, and things are pretty hectic at the moment. I'm in uni five days a week, and I'm working on top of that. So far, so good though.

I've managed to bag myself another week of work experience in January at Stylist magazine. Safe to say I can't wait for that! It's crazy to think I'll be back in Essex in a months time, home for Christmas. Time just seems to be moving so fast, and it's pretty hard to keep up with it to be perfectly honest.

I've also found a new flat for next year, which I'm putting a deposit down on tomorrow. It'll be good to downsize a bit, and live with new people. As much as I love my house at the moment, I can't wait to move. Plus there's a communal gym in the building, which saves me having to make the decision to join one or not!

Something this past year has shown me though, is who your true friends really are. It's funny how people you considered good friends don't have a word to say as soon as you move away. A text every now and again wouldn't hurt, but hey, what can you do. I guess at the end of the day you're on your own, so may as well get used to it as soon as possible. That's easier said than done though when people from the past crop up, when really you'd wished they stayed just that.

When you're lonely and people try and get back in contact, it does mess with your head a bit. There are so many unanswered questions, that I merely don't have the time or energy to ask. Part of me doesn't really want to find out the answers, so there's no point in getting hurt in the process and dragging up old feelings. I guess I've realised its okay to outgrow people, and realise that you don't need them in your life. The friendship will never go back to what it was, and that's alright.

I definitely need to get my head down a bit though, and focus on the reason I've come to university in the first place. It's certainly time to start being a bit smarter with my money and studies, and stop going out so much. Don't get me wrong, I've had some amazing nights out these past two months, but they don't all end as well as they started, and it's time to slow it down a bit.

I recently turned 21, and had the most amazing day. All my family came down from Essex to see me, and we went out to lunch. It was so lovely to see them, and I can't thank them enough for it. A big night out with friends followed. I received so many lovely presents and cards too, which obviously just made the day better.

Just thought I'd do a little update, and have bit of a rant, as its 2am and I can't sleep. I also promised myself I'd do more updates on my blog, and stop neglecting it so much.