Tuesday, 14 October 2014

Onwards and Upwards

I've spent the past month or so contemplating how I'm going to achieve what it is I want in life. It seems tonight I've had an apiphany, if you like. I'm twenty years old, and I feel like I'm finally doing something worthwhile with my life. I'm not just sitting around at home watching life pass me by, wondering what it is I'm doing with mine.

I wasted a lot of time last year on things I didn't want/need to be doing. A part time waitressing job, when I could have tried to get work experience. Having to go back to college to rectify my wrongs. I just wish I'd realised sooner what I wanted in my future. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I've got the working experience I have, and I love the feeling of working and earning my own money. I despise the idea of having to take money off of my parents; I haven't since I was fifteen and don't intend to start now. I feel it just gives me such an independence earning my own money and having the freedom to spend it how I please. 

However, I need to focus on the future.  I've got myself a part-time job at university, and I've decided to stop wasting my money on such material objects. I intend to fill my bookshelf with fashion and journalism books; educating myself on the history of it all and how the industries are now; finding out how they've changed. I intend to actually achieve my goal of working for a fashion magazine and want a background knowledge of the industry. 

I've realised life really is too short to waste your time on things. Although, I do find that is a contradictory statement. Everyone says life is too short, yet it's the longest thing we'll ever experience. 

I've had some relationships come to an end with people that I thought were unexpected to say the least; but it's just another obstacle to overcome. People change as they get older and we all grow into different human beings. I know that I'm certainly not the same person I was three years ago. Sure, it's hard to lose some people, but you get on with it and you adjust to it. It takes a while but it's all just a learning curve. It's just a matter of picking yourself up, dusting yourself down and carrying on. 

That is exactly what I intend to do. 

No comments:

Post a Comment